Who are you Lorelei? And who’s your daughter? Lorelei?

after I was 11 I turned 13 because I don’t fuck with 12

I work in the lighting department! It’s pretty fun work. It’s a little wild and I don’t think it’s for everyone, but I’ve had a lot of way harder jobs that didn’t pay 10% of what I get paid now. The downsides are the incredibly long days, the strange way it works with getting hired; you basically get hired day by day by whomever you made relationships with. Like I’ve never had to “network” before but if you’re competent, pleasant, and willing to work hard, the networking mostly does itself. It’s definitely interesting work. Sometimes I’m in some really swanky private apartment of some really famous person, the next I’m lighting naked models as they writhe around in a bathtub, the next I could be on the street in the rain handling disgusting cables sitting in NYC gutter water, the next I’m working 22hrs in the park on a 100 degree day. It’s wild, but it works for me. I couldn’t go to the same place with the same people everyday. Whenever I did that I was never happy, but I’m pretty content with the amount of variety this work brings

Well I dunno your tastes, but some newer music that isn’t shit (I’m an album listener myself, so I judge by the whole album):

Black MIDI - Hellfire

Adult Jazz - Gist Is

Billy Woods - all three of his newest (one is under “Armand Hammer”, called “we buy diabetic test strips”, the other is “maps,” probably the most widely accessible, and the newest is Golliwog)

Shellac - To All Trains

Fiona Apple - Fetch the Boltcutters

KNOWER - KNOWER Forever

Those few albums span some genres and should cover a lot of tastes. I can add some more if you’re interested, those were just off the top of my head

There is so much music today. To say new music sucks is wild

As someone who works in film, I don’t understand how people would be down with that. Our days are stupid long and exhausting. Everyone usually just wants to get home by the time we finally finish

I think that’s the wide angle lens causing a distortion, they do look like they’re at 90°

Look at the weird dimensions of the light above

There’s always meth.

And if you get bored of that, opioids

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Mine is the same, but she’s started coming out of hiding much earlier after years of realizing she survived the onslaught

See, you do understand. The farce that you don’t so you can label yourself ND is idiotic

Spoiler alert: none of us actually care about how anyone else’s weekends were or how the other person’s kids are doing. You’re just being intentionally obtuse and tedious

We all have to interact with people. That’s living in a community. But when you do, being nice is all it takes. “He’s a really nice guy, he’s just kinda quiet.” This isn’t an uncommon thing to hear about others. It’s literally a common type of person. But then there are assholes. The way you’re describing it you just don’t care to be nice and you’ve found an excuse in neurodivergence that you’re latching onto.

I guess it’s ‘good’ I can ‘change’ if I so decide? but really, change, for what?

Read Books on ethics, not a book about whether you being rude and off putting means you’re neurodivergent.

You don’t have to socialize. But being a decent person means sacrificing your comfort for others’ sometimes. I’m definitely a huge introvert. But just because I’d rather be alone doesn’t mean I’m an asshole to others. Some people don’t get introverts, it just doesn’t compute for them. You can choose to be an asshole to those people—they’re not doing anything to try to hurt you—or you can choose to be decent. You’re just choosing the former.

I’ve been accused behind my back of being manipulative, uncaring, rude, and also a sociopath. Once this impression is given, it is impossible to make people change their minds, including management. I usually don’t fight it because, really, fighting gossip? that’s sticking to 5 year old level politics and what’s the point?

Welcome to being an adult. We all think it’s asinine. Some people get wrapped up and completely engrossed in it. They make petty office politics their entire existence. Some people play the game but only to rise through the ranks. Some people stay out of it. You don’t really fit into any of these categories, it seems. It kinda just sounds like you’re a bit of a dick. That doesn’t make you ND, some people are just kinda dicks.

And I don’t mean that as a slight. Some of my best friends I would classify as being dicks. But it’s everything else you bring to the table that matters. Are you so good at what you do that people put up with it? Or are you just kind of a dick with no redeeming qualities?

Finding reasons for being unlikeable or off-putting doesn’t change the fact that that’s how people see you. You don’t sound ND, you just sound like you don’t care to change. That’s different.

It’s not impossible to make people change their minds. Just be nice. That’s all it takes. The qualities of a nice person aren’t constantly changing and impossible to follow for ND people. You’re just making excuses.

This is the problem with self-diagnoses. There is a fine line between being uncaring and being unable to care. One is a bad person, the other person is possibly BPD.

OP, until you get diagnosed with something, leave your excuses for being a dick aside and work on bettering yourself. Even if you end up being unable, it still doesn’t mean you have Asperger’s. Because bad people still refuse to change sometimes.

Off topic but my brain kept reading “secret Kennedy” and I was wondering how many fucking kennedys there were if we’re discovering secret ones

Oh you’re from England? But you don’t have an accent

Where are you located? I thought hot air balloons are really rare these days, like less than 200 in the world

Or am I thinking of blimps?

What do you mean? I can’t even read that it says William Clark